When there's a tornado...

Of things you want to spill out and nobody's around, you probably shouldn't have a blog.  Keeping that in mind I'm trying hard to restrict what I spill all over this page.

I'm all in a tizzy because of these feelings that are boiling inside of me.  "only a fool gives full vent to his emotions..." I don't want to be that fool.  But everything that I'm experiencing I've experienced before, so I pray like I prayed before, and I speak by faith that God has got a plan that I trust in Him...  Even though I don't really trust, otherwise I would have some peace in this moment.  But I do trust, because I haven't gone and blown my lid.  I'm in the uncomfortable middle ground that is a form of torment that can only be relieved by time, patience and trust.

Lord, I long for Your word to be spoken over my life, shine a light and show me the way through this.  Though I have desires in my heart, I will wait for Your will to be done.